Believe?

hmm
sometimes I wonder
why are people so materialistic?
gone were the beautiful days
where the abstract parts of life were embraced.
maybe there are the rare few who still do
but its a pity they're dying out as well.

I wonder
why do I still believe?
time after time I try
yet the results are always the same
shall I still believe, and try?
or should I anchor myself into a new life?

am I a little slow?
only after such a long while
do I really see the light
there are a few that walk the path
a few that actually hold to the belief
seems like, at long last, I've found my home
those people, especially 7 of them
make this world seem so warm.

when its time to open the door
and walk out into that freezing day
will they walk with me?

all I can do is pray
that such a bond can remain
and survive the erosions of time.

that is all that I ask for
will it ever take a positive turn?
with patience, I shall wait

Silence

not in much of a mood to blog today
but well, whatever that gets my mind of stuff.

its really epic
to see how difficult it is to build a spirit
then how easy it is to crash it
even a few small words can make a difference.

it really pains
to see all the effort you threw in
the countless hours spent on it
and you cant even sustain it for that mere hour
everything seems to go to a waste
and losing more dignity

and again pain strikes
a single word crashing your world around you
you wonder will all your efforts
go to waste again?
and lose more dignity in the process?

or is it I worry too much?
but I have experienced far too much as well.

shall just hope
and wish on that star in the sky
praying hard...

until the stars grow dark
and the world whispers its end
I... will last...

I smile again

reality
visions of the clear blue sky
seeing hope in the clouds
eternity of peace

vicious storm clouds in the horizon
in a bright morning sky
omen of doom, perhaps?
leaning on my efforts
it will push me through
seeping through my veins, the focus
through my blood it courses
sending pulses of energy

a short piece to describe most of my day today.
I simply love the beginning of those lines
and a few words
anxiety
stress
calm
happy
pain
more pain
*stares at the last two*
yes, pain. it aint fun, hoping pain will go away soon

Smiles

hmm, this is weird
so many people mention "monday blues"
but it seems i'm most awake, most hyper and on best form
for mugging, studying, etc on mondays
then by friday i'll be half dead, when everyone's hyper
cos theyre looking forward to the weekend.
I'm weird.

my legs are hurting
probably from all my running training
and tennis, and jumping...
not to mention having a bike crash into you
oh well
fight thru the pain
and continue my training.

I need to practice more viola as well
make sure my skills improve quick
and indulge myself in more music.

and i'm glad i can follow the syllabus in school
its amazing, I can actually understand more

well.
I must continue to work for everything
studies, viola, fitness, tennis
determination is the key.

and I'm happy
thankful for my friends to help me tide over times
especially those few

smile and walk on

-----Nwk-----

Choice

I realised more things today
things that just confirm
that my decision are correct
and that I wont regret them

I know where my true friends are
and I will stay with them.

after all, to have a good team
team members need cohesion
there cannot be strife between them.
with strife, how can there be cohesion?
without cohesion, how can a team play?
I'll stay if I can,
but if a choice must be made
I'm following my friends
to that brighter place
where people actually understand each other
and make an effort to know each other.

so my choice is made
if I must, i'll go with my friends
after all, I can still pursue my passion
and with their understanding
I'm sure I can go even further.
so, what say I?

SE, I love
violist, especially.

-----Nwk-----

I'm happy

a long post, but i'm happy.
why? for many reasons.

firstly
I finally got the racket of my dreams
Wilson K factor six-one tour 90
strung with Luxilon Alu Power 125 strings at 55lbs tension
equipped with a K grip and babolat gel dampener.
its awesome.

tennis elimination round 1 is this saturday
and i'm not used to my new racket and strings yet
only about 4 more days to train with it.
well... just my luck to get one of the toughest opponents
I'll probably lose, but even if I must lose
I'll make sure I dont go down easily
even if I lose, I'll just try for elimination round 2
so... not much worries on my mind
I'll just train with my racket, and put in my best effort

second, I'm happy cause I can follow the syllabus
math, I understand vectors
bio, I understand eukaryotic genome
chem, I understand carbonyl groups
econs, still abit tough, but i'm getting the hang of it
just hope I can master all my subjects before my prelims
and get As for A levels.

lastly, I'm most happy
because I've cleared my cluttered mind
thanks to the help from my friends
made my decisions
I'm so glad I have friends by my side
especially those few of them

well, thats all
I'm happy =)

-----Nwk-----

Peace

and so as life passes by
I take a stroll
and wonder
at the images flashing through my mind

the process of thought
having gone through it
realising ideas

no matter what happens
that light will always shine
to guide you out of the mire
a glowing light
washing you with peacefulness

I am at ease
I do not regret this path
we stand by each other
no matter what lies ahead.

so we shall walk again
friends by our sides

-----Nwk-----